Main Character Energy

Warning: the following will contain high levels of ego and strong self-love. I’m kidding; mostly. This is going to be a difficult post to write, in my head I’m already rolling my eyes at myself. There’s a little bit of my inner-insecure-child screaming ‘you’re imagining things!’, ‘this is going to be such an arrogant blog…

Self respect

I think the lesson I've struggled with the most this year is self respect. I am a people pleaser by nature (or by trauma, which is more likely), and I have always struggled with attracting those who will take advantage of that. I struggle, too, with doubt over my boundaries. I can sit for hours…

Revelstoke

Revelstoke is one of my absolute favorite dating experiences, hands down. Not because it ended up turning into anything at all, but because 1) the experience itself was pretty cool and taught me things I needed to learn, and 2) because I learned, once again, that good men still exist in the world. He was…

New Mexico

A few weeks ago, I got a follow request on instagram from a very handsome and brooding man, one who I would have never guessed would have been attracted to me. Curious as ever and all about messages from the universe, I accepted. What's the worst that could happen? I followed him back, and then…

Grounding

He was the sea Dark and menacing unsteady beneath my feet Unpredictable and violent A storm brewing behind his eyes He took what wasn’t his Sweeping away anything that didn’t serve him The current tugging me into the deep Crushed by the weight of it all. You are earth Air, forest You are the roots…

Social media VS reality

I saw a video yesterday, it popped up on my news feed and it made me giggle. Two gentlemen were standing outside of club doors dancing when a group of young women passed by and all but one joined. The one who didn’t, pulled out her phone and instantly began recording the event in the…

Awareness

I feel more healed and healthy than I expected to be this soon after leaving. The engagement I walked away from was the most dangerous relationship I’ve ever had and even now, 6 months later, he’s still trying to get my focus and my attention. What’s amazing to me is how completely unaffected I am…

29

My 29th birthday was on Monday and I spent it alone. I did some errands and treated myself to a fun donut, a coffee and a subscription to a streaming service to watch Letterkenny.  This may sound incredibly sad to many, but to me it’s kind of a miracle. See, I have never been good…

Healing

My body wakes me with the sun And i don’t go back to sleep I make myself tea And smile while it steeps When I get hungry I fry food in a pan I play music and I sing along In a way only a single woman can i dance in my kitchen  I make…

Directions

Recently I’ve noticed something about myself that I haven’t recognized before . I have absolutely no sense of direction - not literally, nor figuratively. I think it stems from a few things, really. Partially the underlying belief I wouldn’t necessarily make it to this place, this age, this season of life but also partially because,…